July 7, 2020

Living in a Pandemic: Adjusting to my New Normal

I don’t know about you, but if I never hear another firecracker again I won’t be mad. The Saturday night fireworks for 4th of July was the conclusion of a month long firecracker nightmare. Sunday morning I woke up to a full blown migraine, but guess what things still needed to get done, so I pushed through the pain, cooked Sunday dinner, did laundry and struggled for two hours to upload a video to my Facebook fan page. That’s how I spent my holiday weekend.

It’s been three months since being in Lockdown due to the Coronavirus Pandemic and life has changed so much. The work/life balance I thought I would finally get experience now that I’m working from home is still non existent. Sure I don’t have to commute almost two hours to and from work but the work load and expectation hasn’t changed.

I was living for the weekend, only for the weekend to arrive and not having the energy to do anything

I told myself I was going to use this opportunity to really go hard and promote myself and take my freelance career up a notch; but after the first couple of weeks of working from home I felt like I was going to crash. I went to bed every night tired and angry. I was living for the weekend, only for the weekend to arrive and not having the energy to do anything because I was so mentally drained. Although my job is demanding, I am so grateful to have a job during this time.

Black Lives Matter
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The fact that I am living through a pandemic which more than likely will be here until 2021, the murder of George Floyd and Breonna Taylor and the racial injustice Black people have to deal with due to systematic and systemic oppression.

The last three months have been an emotional rollercoaster. I found myself becoming desensitized to what I was seeing online that I had to take a social media break and limit the amount of news I watching.

With all that’s been going on in the world, I’m trying my best not to lose myself. It hasn’t been easy but by the grace of God, I’m pushing through.

I know consistency is key, but it’s discouraging to see your hard work just fall flat.

For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been able to find some time to promote myself via my socials. Although putting in the work and not seeing much engagement does makes me question sometimes if its worth even posting. I know consistency is key, but it’s discouraging to see your hard work just fall flat. When I find myself in a negative head space, I remind myself of these two quotes; 

“Just because the world doesn’t acknowledge your gifts, talents and abilities, it does not make you less credible. STOP waiting for other people to validate you. Just keep doing the work (practice, grind, refine). The world will catch up to you eventually”. – Dwayne Cash

“Consistency is harder when no one is clapping for you. You must clap for your self during those time, you should always be your biggest fan.”- Delight_ hustle

I had to to become my own cheerleader, because editing and uploading one video a week is an accomplishment for ME!

Although i’m using this time to be productive, some people are just trying to make through the day. I’m tired of seeing the memes about how ‘Now is the time to start that business or were half way through the year, what have you accomplished?”.

Let people Live! Let people rest! Let people Mourn! The year is not over, we still have time to do the things that we set out to do and if you want to take the rest of the year off, then you have every right to. 

I’m not sure what the future holds for the state of our country, I just pray America makes the right decision in the fall. Until then I will keep doing my best while trying to protect my peace.

Until Next time,